- d0nt turn back

Sunday, December 31, 2006 2:48:00 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

as i reflect on year 2006. i realised how faithful God is =)
ive learnt to focus & depend on him in all that i do.
ive grown deeper in him & ive grown closer to my family.
thk you Lord for all ur blessings & for giving me the ride of my life.
thk u for the bad times & for e tough trainings i went thru.
thk you for all e taitai treatments & travelling too haha.
wadever ive achieved this yr..is all for ur glory alone.
i will not possibly be going thru all these without you.
i will look forward to 2007 with excitement that God will continue to do great things !

here's my new yr resolution. ( this time round ive put much thot into it. )

* do all things for the glory of God.

what i would like to achieve in 2007:

1. dance more dance numbers in the dance ministry.
2. get into VJC!
3. be a blessing to others.
4. evangelism
5. attend ywav regularly
6. complete 3 terms of dance trainings each for ballet & jazz

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Tuesday, December 19, 2006 11:38:00 AM
mad

im struggling with myself right now. i feel so tired & frustrated with myself. im just too ambitious =( its my 3rd time missing jazz yts. and next wk ill be overseas. sigh..well you're probably thinkin its no big deal to miss dance classes rite? but to me..its a WHOLE BIG DEAL.oh my gdness im crazy seriously. i was very very tired yts and yet i wanted to go so badly..AHHHH i need to change.im afraid that ppl will gossip & i keep thinkin that ppl will not accept me if i dont dance properly. sigh..actually in fact God doesnt look at how much talents i hav..instead he looks at our hearts & whether we earnestly seek him...but why then am i still so obsessed & afraid? why?

AHHHHHH im fatter ive gained weight AH.

AHHHH i miss twoH & eL so much..i seem to hv lost my social life this hols. just when i thot i would be hanging out in town this hols..man im so wrong! i dont even get e chance to walk down town with my friends. either im at home rotting & practising dance like crazy OR im overseas. =(
i miss evryone.
arghhh i hate myself

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Sunday, December 17, 2006 3:03:00 PM
JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL

to all the DANCERS of JTTW.
from the bottom of my heart i want to thank all of you. you guys taught me so many things. let's stay united as one in the love of Christ. i miss you guys. haha all the songs & dances are stil ringing in my head. & usually at this hour we are practising at ngee ann poly studio XD
wanna noe sth? ..it's my first time hugging so many ppl at once & hugging just about evrybody. haha the last 3 days will be etched deep in my memory =)
we've been thru all of gerrard's scoldings, pressure, stress & worries..it's not easy but God showed himself to us. from now onwards..when i dance, i want to dance a dance of God's love..a dance of God's glory..a dance of how amazing he is. & NEVER a self centred dance =) LOL. i can still picture gerrard saying" c'mon ppl! smile! ure killing the show u know!"

to aunt jane, the committee & evrybody involved in this:

ive learnt that when we surrender our lives to God, he will not assure us a smooth perfect journey but he'll give us the ride of our life!
thks for making this production possible..it has changed all of our lives & hopefully e audience's lives too. JTTW taught me to rely on God & taught me to pray more..my faith has definitely strengthened...

we're all in this together!
..im a friend of God!
hallelujah ur love is amazing!
i had the last waltz with you..

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Friday, December 08, 2006 10:04:00 PM
...continued

here's the continued part of my aussie trip haha.
well i forgot to tell you something BAD. I LOST MY CONTACT LENS!!!!!!!
fortunately i lost one side of it only after playing all 3 theme parks..( like duh ..how can one ever enjoy a rollercoaster ride without gd eyesight?)
that night e wind was very strong & sth got into my eye. i started tearing alot then the whole contacts flipped out of my eye bcos my eyes were too dry. then i tried to put it back into my eye then TADA it dropped off & flew away. =( WAAAAHH gdness i had to wear my ugly ooogly specs for e remaining days can. but YAY i finally got a new pair of contacts yts. actually its almost time to change my contact lens bcos its a lil spoiled & has been causing my eyes to be bloodshot the entire aussie trip HAHA so u see thats why my parents decided to pay for my new pair HEHE)

ok back to e theme parks! my fav would be movie world ! my dad & i took the superman escape rollercoaster. its freaking cool. 4 positive G-forces & 1 negative G-force. 100km/hr in 2 seconds!
i must say its e best rollercoaster ever! i was thrilled when we could take the first front seat then scream the hell out of ourself. lOL i almost had a sore throat by the end of those 3 days.
dreamworld had the most rides. and i love it that australia's rides are creative enuf to drop ppl backwards instead of forward XD there's this scoobydoo rollercoaster...it stopped at one door..then shook us around..then suddenly we dropped BACKWARDS! woohoo!
there's a river log ride in movieworld that drops us backwards too...very cool bcos e slope is steep & it makes ur heart jump much more than dropping forward.
honestly i love movie so much bcos there's BUGS BUNNY & all e looney tunes character =D
HEY i am still a child at heart ok. i love bugs bunny alot..ill dig up my cartoons & watch them this hols
yeap and then we also watched this australia outback spectacular show. =) good experience actually. we had cowboy hats & dinner served while we watched ppl riding horses & performing stunts. first time watching so many horses racing together.
our family shopped in surfers paradise very often & we stayed at coolongatta next to the beach . beautiful place . I love the beach!
the breeze evry morning is so refreshing.
try jogging along there & its hard to get tired haha. then there's also grocery shopping! its fun over there bcos the supermarkets are so HUGE. & there were 2 large supermarkets opened till midnight near our hotel. so at night when we had nothing to do we just shopped there. our place had full kitchen set s0 we can still enjoy homecooked sandwiches & cold milk.
and i tell you BRISBANE CITY IS BORING. EXCEPT queens street area where there's so many shopping centres haha.
i love their clothing style & im shoked i managed to find a nice dance pants for only 6 bucks.

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Wednesday, December 06, 2006 8:10:00 PM
i dont want to come home

im back! 1.54am touch down into singapore.so as you can see im still jetlagged & im in no mood for any intensive things hehx i miss aussie so much! i hav to take some time to get used to s'pore..now evrywhere i go i see black asian heads..no longer golden blonde aussie heads XD. & now e ppl along e streets & in e lift lobbies are no longer friendly =( the weather there is very sunny but not humid & at night its lik airconditioned..so it rocks! but i must say that e food in aussie sucks big time compared to s'pore..i spend at least 9 bucks for a meal over there.man e price is daylight robbery. fishball noodles & laksa costs 11 bucks..a can of coke is 2.50 bucks. -.-
OOOHH but the chocolates are HEAVEN. i had a whale of time riding rollercoasters in all 3 theme parks =) those are my favourite so far..i bought alot of clothes too! & this REALY REALLY beautiful teddy bear.. *sniggers* well I PROMISE! no more spending this xmas..but hey dont worry i bought all ur xmas gifts & candy canes in aus too =)
i learnt alot from e aus girls there.confidence.their style & e way they carry themselves..girls like me must learn to love our own bodies & just hav fun.hehx. ok anyway im having a dirty talk wif sonjia & eil & ls now..so i better go..cos e msn window is scrolling down at a fast rate XD

later ppl!

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

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