- d0nt turn back

Friday, March 31, 2006 10:57:00 PM
fedup .ready to give up

ahh help my headache's killing me.
it lasted for almost a wk already...sighh gosh it hurts alot. took mc on mon & thurs..& today totally sucks lik crazy. freaking day. e pain was so great that i feel faintish thruout e day .cant seem to walk properly as dere's always this floating groggy feeling . worse still i had to sit for amath test bio test [erm hehx flunked of course XD] & chem prac spa ..
well =X

lmao. den e stupid amath test ate away all my brain juices can. stood up & saw pitch spot of blackness. didnt even prepare for bio retest..can u believe tt i was such an idiot to write e wrong scale so many times? ms chng probably tot i was mad or sth cos i kept erasing & plotting all ovr again..hurmph. & in e end i heck & wrote in e inaccurate scale..super fed up alredi can.

sighh i dunno how im goin to take dis man..pray hard to recover.. dis headache making me lose so much energy..alot of stress here it goes.:
its like im in a huge dilemma whether or not to go for camp next wk..I REALLY wanna GO but my health is vv down. sigh im v worried i cant dance in church dis sun too..
& if i cant dance on sun means dey'll need to change e formations & evrything..
i dun wanna disappoint my frens so tmr i must go for class dance practice tmr evening.. and drama prac tmr afternoon is VERY impt ..sun actual thing liao.

.........................................................................................................................................................................................e list goes on
SO MUCH HOMEWORK!

okay dun worry ..up to dis point ill blog abt more happy stuff HAHA
im very thankful for olivia doro tingyun yn kenyan eil & all other beloved el peeps for brightening my day during cca =) altho i was down in e dumps dey cheered me up alot. AHAHHAHAHA & kenyan's act was HILARIOUS. king kenken LMAO ! hahahahahahahahahha plus e aeroplane omg. we laughed until get fits.

whee after cca went to tiong macs as usual with doro & oli ..& i ate happy meal LOL recall my childhood memories. was almost squealing at e happy meal box ( erm which is ironically spoilt afterall) erm dots haha okayy tt's lame.

shall end here yep gdnights! =)

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Wednesday, March 22, 2006 6:03:00 PM

Rules: Bold the following that are true about you and add 5 people who you want to do this at the bottom.

I miss somebody right now. (:

I don't watch much TV these days.

I love olives.

I own lots of books.

I wear glasses or contact lenses.

I love to play video games.

I've watched porn movie.

I have been in a threesome.

I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.<---DIAO!

I believe that honesty is the best policy.

I curse sometimes. <---erm sorry

I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

I'm TOTALLY smart.

I've broken someone's bones.

I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.

I hate the rain.

I'm paranoid at times.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.<--LOL!

I need money right now.

I love sushi.

I talk really, really fast.

I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.<-- can't remember who.

I have a lot of mood swings.

I think prostitution should be legalized.

I think Britney Spears is pretty. <--- O.O

I have a hidden talent. <-- i seriously hope so.

I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.< -- depends

I have a lot of friends.

I am currently single.

I enjoy talking on the phone. <--chatterbox mah

I LOVE TO SHOP!

I don't hate anyone.

I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

I have a cell phone.

I believe in (a) God.

I watch MTV on a daily basis. <--MTV ROCKS

I've rejected someone before. <-- LOL

I like someone. <--all my friends counted?

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.<--sadly.

I want to have children in the future. <--no way..

I have changed a diaper before.

I have a lot to learn.

I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

I am shy around the opposite sex.

I have at least 5 away messages saved.

I have tried alcohol or drugs before.

I have avoided assignments at work/school to blog. --> im doin so now XD

I would die for my best friends.

I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.

I watch soap operas whenever I can.

I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist.

I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.

Halloween is awesome because you get free candy

I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.

I have dated a close friend's ex.

I am happy at this moment. <---more tired than happy

I'm obsessed with guys. <---ERM

I go for older guys/girls, not younger.

I study for tests most of the time.

I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.

I can work on a car.

I am comfortable with who I am right now.

I have more than just my ears pierced.

I walk barefoot wherever I can.

I have jumped off a bridge.

I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.

I believe in prophetic dreams.

I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

I worked at McDonald's restaurant.

I hate office jobs.

I love sci-fi movies.

I think water rules.

I am adopted.

I like sausage.

I have thrown up from crying too much.

I love kisses.

I fall for the worst people.

I adore bright colors

I think school is awesome.<--- to some extent.

I think pigtails serve a purpose.

I dont know why the hell i did this thing

I usually like covers better than originals.

I don't like multi-textured ice cream.. .

I love coaching youth sports.

I can pick up things wiht my toes

I cant whistle

I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.

I have ridden/owned a horse.

I still have every journal I've ever written in.

I can't stick to a diet.

I talk in my sleep. <---better not

I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century

Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

I have jazz in my blood.

I wear a toe ring.

I have a tattoo.

I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.<-- trying to live with it.

I am a caffeine junkie!!

I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.

I love wrestling.

If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.

I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.

I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.

I'm an aritst.

I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made

I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.

I only clean my room when neccesary.

I have pointy-ended ears.

I have underwear every colour of the rainbow.

I LOVE korean dramas.

I colour-code my wardrobe.

I own more than 20 pairs of shoes.

I cry silently and get over things easily and quickly.

I love blasting linkin park at mum whenever she nags.I love listening to jay chou music.

I love watching cartoons.

I love lame jokes.<--DUHH

I wish I was a tragic hero.<-- i think its quite touching to die for smth.someone.

I hate one of my best friends but s/he has no idea.

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Sunday, March 19, 2006 4:02:00 PM
sigh.

"love is tricky

it is nvr mundane or daily.

u can nvr get used to it.

u hv to walk with it, then let it walk with u.

u can nvr balk. it moves u like e tide.

it takes u out to sea, then lays u on e beach again.

Today's struggling pain is e foundation for a certain stride thru e heavens.

u can run from it but u can nvr say no. it includes everyone.
"

---from The hundred secret senses

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Wednesday, March 15, 2006 12:01:00 PM
lazy morning

my dad's back frm india! tralalalalalalaaaahhhh~

haah lazing ard at home now..my ankle's feeling much better.
but im stil dragging my feet to do hw boo.
cant wait to go roxy ltr!
btw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIEL!
my beloved el junior =)

i love u dear.! stay happie & funloving always

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Tuesday, March 14, 2006 7:22:00 PM
grooovalicious.

we had eL day camp today. sadly i sprained my ankle & had to leave early..came home to rest.[omg so irritating its alredi my 8th time spraining grr] other than tt i had a v gd tym =) im in mel's team GROOVY HEHEH its so fun..run here run dere shouting & cheering XD

drama fest dis yr was kind of diff. we get to buy props thru auctions & ice-cream sticks lmao.
WOOTS we finished e fastest for station games..haha i was running on e grass patch & suddenly PIAK goes my ankle.twisted.reali hurts but fortunately it's not as serious as last tym..sigh so now im worried cuz may nt b able to dance next wk. =( & ill hv to limp e whole holx. siann
anyways i feel quite disappointed i wasnt able to get to noe my sec1 juniors well yet..sigh. i cant even rmb some of their names lo =X oopx srry.

so much work to do for e hols. *SCREAMS*
its yucking can. i originally planned to go out with jeanne & other frens .but now..look at dis ankle & all those freaking work...ahhhh
*SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM*

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Monday, March 13, 2006 10:31:00 PM
C'MON GO DROP NOW !

woots. jazz class today's fun fun fun! budden e dance routines & e last cool down was lik..*gasp*gasp*gasp*
for e cool down we had to roll across e flr..7 sit-ups roll ovr drop 7 push-ups roll ovr...drop roll drop roll for like dunno how many times continuously. ahh v tiring.

well last 4 daes
stayed at amara hotel wif my sis & mum just to relax & slackk ovr e wkends =)
i slept like a sleep-deprived pig! ..had so much difficulty waking up on sun ..lol even serene noticed i looked tired.
but yep i reali had a gd time staying there & just taking my mind off things.

okayys tmr's el day camp YAYYYYEEEEEE
cant wait.
argh i forgotten wad i wanted to blog. shucks.
erm ya hols are here . guess i wanna spend dis one wk wisely.. spend more time with god & oso go out wif all my frens =)

gtg. ciaos.

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Wednesday, March 08, 2006 9:49:00 PM
OHLALA

hooray ive finally decided not to be a lazy bum & just blog. haha cross country today's not bad..considering e fact tt we walked thru e whole thing heheh XD UNI ROCKS goin to get a sore throat soon after all those cheering.

yupx it was fun to walk wif sohhwee miang eil yn clare.we chatted & admired trees & monkeys lol. better than running ..after that i went to shell petrol kiosk with oli & eil to get a ride home haah..my mum came to fetch oli & i ..gosh we felt so thirsty & sticky that it just felt like paradise walking into e air-con place. i think i dirty e car ALOT haah.
hmm yar alot of stuff running thru my mind these daes . i seriously feel much better after telling u guys wad ive been keepin inside..(= thks for listening . ill see whether it's God's will for me or not..see wad he wans me to do..cos sighh . sighh i dunno wad i shld do.

got back progress report today. v satisfied with e results. God helped me alot =) i didnt do much actually..it was he who helped me thru evrything..but hopefully i wun slack anymore..

here's a list of ppl i MISS SO MUCH : + 2hyperists. (esp you, you & yes you!)

+ daddy

+ my dance instructor ham.
+ eil yn kitleng clare fann janice sj jm ...aiya basically all 2h peeps again lmao =)

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

*****

Thursday, March 02, 2006 7:18:00 PM
pourquoi.

my dad just left for assam india few hrs ago =( sighh we'll miss him alot esp my mum. well guess it may nt make much of a difference to me since i hardly get to see him on normal days..

life's stil as siann as usual yep.sighh SIANN YESH tat's e word for it. but thk God these few days things are getting better for me. G.O.R brightened my day yts! =D felt lik a kindergarten teacher ..sherlyn & i had to take care of 13 kids woots dey were so cute & innocent...
made me smile after sucha hard dae =) and we had alot of fun reading & playing with them..haha & when we asked them to sing.. evryone was so enthu.
hehe vv adorable. so glad i ponn chem prac to see those kids.

ermm today's not bad either..e pain in my back's so much better .. OH YES & guess wad. i managed to dig out amy tan's bks ..borrowed them whee. enough to keep me occupied & away frm drifting off.
so funny e lil boxes of sweets in dylan's envelope exploded LMAO HAHAHAHAHAHHAA v funny can. feel so so umber paiseh abt it too. srry dude!

tmr eil yn jo & me will be going to yuanching sec to CHEER for our darling PEIQI & other tabletennis ppl for their match =) WOOHOOO

GO PEIQI ! JIAYOU ! U CAN DO IT !

im sorry ;
i cant be perfect

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